City For The Lost

Moving on

2008-12-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

Moving on to new address

http://jonathangoh.wordpress.com/

And the winner is......

2008-12-29T09:05:00.004+08:00

2nd upper barely maintained... i think.

Quintessentially Asian

2008-12-25T10:55:00.002+08:00

Sometime this wee early morning...

Charm: (to Shoe)

"oh remember how I told you how cute Nigel is?" *blah blah blah* "He is so quintessentially Asian with his small eyes and slim face."

Shoe:

"Huh! Jon has small eyes and silm face too what. So he's quintessentially Asian lah"

*Laughter*

I'm Quintessentially Asian.

Cool Stuff!

2008-12-24T16:21:00.001+08:00

Apparently I was right!

2008-12-23T13:10:00.002+08:00

You Scored as Visual&PerformingArts

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in the Visual or Performing Arts (e.g., Art, Art Education, Art History, Ceramics, Culinary Arts, Dance, Drawing, Fashion Design, Film, Graphic Design, Interior Design, Marketing (advertising), Music, Music Education, Music Theory, Painting, Photography, Theatre).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Visual&PerformingArts

81%

Religion/Theology

69%

English/Journalism/Comm

69%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

69%

HR/BusinessManagement

63%

Education/Counseling

63%

Psychology/Sociology

63%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

56%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

50%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

44%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

44%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

38%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

25%

Mathematics/Statistics

Se7en Days

2008-12-18T09:48:00.002+08:00

After a full week of production, I've learned a lot. I'm beginning to understand the difference between different kinds of storytelling.

Film is not just a narrative that conceive of revealing events, like Lucus and Marijke teach, it will be just radio drama. Look here see this go there. Then there are films like those of Guillermo del Toro, Tim Burton where every detail in design is in for a specific reason or based of certain feelings.

Then there is the other aspects such as camera work and lighting and sound that creates the mood, atmosphere and intention of the director.

This is the different between the different kind of films made.

Can't wait to see how each turns out.

色彩斑斕的世界

2008-12-13T11:17:00.001+08:00

紅、橙、黃、綠、青、藍、紫，在色彩斑斕的世界裡你知道它們醞藏著什麼意義嗎？
你又知道顏色可以判斷你的內心世界嗎？

Japan Media Fest

2008-12-10T20:00:00.003+08:00

未完成的试诗

2008-11-24T01:28:00.003+08:00

不留情的大雨，无声无息的降下
被平复的心绪，静悄悄的涌上
每一件东西都提醒着你
每一丝情绪都怀念着你

雨声埋没了哭泣
雨水掩盖了泪滴

希望你过的还好
也会莫名的想起我

Directing Assignment #2

2008-11-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

浪

2008-11-18T22:42:00.002+08:00

一股莫名的孤单，寂寞与悲伤　突然涌上心头

像潮落时　被遗弃的沙
像被风遗忘的叶子

或许是不想离去的沙
或许是不想掉落的叶

当时间记得那棵沙时　它是否还存在着
当岁月想起那片叶时　它是否已经枯萎了

渴望一阵大雨　
融化冰结的心
洗去默默的泪

他说过
潮起终究潮落
终要有一首我的歌
大声唱过　在看天的辽阔

长大

2008-11-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

不想长大的小孩，需要慢慢的学会长大了

把那个坚持　那个不听话　那个任性
收进铁盒里

把倔强串上链子
藏在衣里　放在胸前

把梦想绑在铃上
让岁月的风　叮咛着梦

不想长大的小孩，慢慢适应长大

有点不舍　有点孤单　有点寂寞

可是不得已

需要长大

后。青春期的诗

2008-11-04T21:44:00.004+08:00

五月天　作品＃７

因为一直像小孩子一样　有那个坚持　有那个不听话　有那个任性　
因为一直在过去　不想长大　才会容易想起过去的事或想要回到什么状态

歌颂　想念
歌颂　生活
歌颂　面具
歌颂　疯狂
歌颂　朋友
歌颂　希望
歌颂　纯真
歌颂　反抗
歌颂　无奈
歌颂　回忆
歌颂　青春
歌颂　长大

唱出了每一丝心弦

唱出了　后。青春期的诗

New Technology

2008-11-03T11:05:00.002+08:00

After 48 hours, 1 leehom concert and Wizard of Oz musical, my new tech project is finally done. Thanks to those who have helped.

I hereby present to you my masterpiece featuring OCT Bros, NSI Momo, NSI Songloo and Ningz.

决定

2008-10-29T23:34:00.003+08:00

After so many years of studies, I've finally decided on the path I would like to take. A visual story teller. Isn't that a film maker? No, something more. I would like to focus on Cinematography, to assist others in telling a story visually.

人。。。

2008-10-14T22:59:00.001+08:00

人

不为己，天诛地灭。

真的只能如此吗？

Hungry

2008-10-01T01:55:00.001+08:00

It sucks to be hungry in the wee hours. Nothing to eat at home. Noone to go out and eat with. Nowhere to go eat. I need to move to the east.

太阳号

2008-09-29T01:10:00.001+08:00

来自台湾的太阳号，带着梦想　出　发　吧！

Puppy Power

2008-09-16T01:15:00.002+08:00

A family in my friend's neighbourhood is giving away their husky. I wish I could take it in. Too bad i dun have the ability to take care of it now. Sad. Very sad.

Update Leh v2

2008-09-15T21:01:00.003+08:00

Kinda moody for the last few weeks. Can't seem to generate the energy to do things. Been thinking of going back to swimming but just doesn't happen. Everything seems dull and pointless. Some incidents over the last few weeks made me feel unappreciated. Not being petty, but it really sucks when people only look for you first when they need something and completely leave you to the last when there is something good. Kinda supports alec's theory of useful friends. Well, suck thumb.

Been trying to block out some time to chill out and laugh random people at restaurants but everyone's schedule just cannot agree. I need to make sense of the nonsense I'm living through.

I need a drink and a trip.

Update Leh v1

2008-09-13T11:02:00.003+08:00

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GPS Film - Not a Moving Picture, A Picture Moving

2008-08-05T11:42:00.001+08:00

"Nine Lives" Trailer from GPSFILM on Vimeo.

The reason why I've been busy for the past few months.

Finally

2008-07-28T10:35:00.003+08:00

It's been close to 3 months and finally things are drawing to a close. It's been a tiring and interesting long project. Had my full share of fun and laughter joy and tears (just to make it rhyme). Now's the time for a break.

Sorry to all my dearest friends whose happenings I have missed out.

Now, I present the project I've been working hard on......

... nah... trade secret... cannot reveal here.

Its Been A Hard Day's Work

2008-06-17T08:22:00.002+08:00

Its been a hard month's work actually with the GPS filming still on the roll. Managed to catch a few day's break to help momo set-up his all-so-cool male-adrenaline-filled-team's booth for some special semester module. A mannequin and 6 engineers adds up to tons of secondary school stuff.

Was able to bump into nic muthusamy when on recce, talk to gab on the phone, ami, ning, alec on msn, khai on sms, and slot in a supper with szeming and meixia just to let them know I'm still alive.

I had an off-hand job yesterday filming 5foot Broadway's mini musical at esplanade. The last mini musical was about BMT and one sequence just kept stuck in my mind.

The main lead was dump by his boyfriend (not unexpected. Come on BMT and musical, this sure to pop up) and his mat buddy picked up his guitar and starts to cheer him up. Somehow the first thing that crossed my mind was Johari. His random singings in barrack on random stuff just cheers the whole barrack up. Had to film 3 rounds of the musical and every time that segment comes up, I just can't help smiling. I could really need some of Jo's mat singing now to bring some sunshine into the my days.

Post production for the GPS film is still waiting. Have to wait for the visual edit before I can do any sound edit. Another month long of work to go. Hope I survive it for my much talked about trip to who knows where.

如果

2008-05-26T18:04:00.002+08:00

如果我从地球的表面上消失，有人会发现吗？

如果天空不停的下雨，有人还回哭泣吗？

如果太阳每天照耀着，就没有人回难过吗？

如果世界没有声音，还能听到彼此的心跳吗？

Looking Forward

2008-05-17T20:28:00.001+08:00

to the end..........

of time.

Moments by FM2

2008-05-13T09:07:00.010+08:00

沉墨

2008-04-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

那天晚上　我突然碰见你
虽然只是背影　却很肯定是你
我们之间　隔着一椟隐形的墙　一片辽阔的人海
在你转身的一瞬间　我迈步离开
不想让更多的你　浮现在脑海中

街灯顿时暗淡　城市顿时安静下来
早已散去的乌云　渐渐开始蔓延
当雨落下时　谁会来撑伞

那夜　你的影子陪我入眠
拥抱不到的温暖　感觉不到的呼吸
提醒了我　你的离去

笔干了
心情也应该平复了吧？

Good Times

2008-03-24T23:15:00.001+08:00

Auzzie Boy is back. It will be like the good old days again. Dinner ar PA mess shall we? Wednesday is Nasi Lemak day. Hahahaha

I Hate...

2008-03-23T23:30:00.003+08:00

...that i don't know anything

...being misunderstood

...explaining myself

...how i have not enough time

...how i have not enough money

...how everyone is pointing their fingers on me

...people bossing me around

...the direction the world is turning

...the fact that Polaroid is closing down

...school works

...the rain

...the lack of rain

...

most of all i hate birthdays. Nothing good ever happens around birthdays. Why should this year be different?

Wanderlust

2008-03-02T21:52:00.003+08:00

Wanderlust has struck again. I need a break from all these shit. I need a breather.

I guess I've learned once again that I've high expectations and it always delivers the hardest blows. I guess some people don't need to know as much.

I wish I had more control over my life. I hurts to be the fallen leaf blown around by the currents of fate. Let there be light. Thank you to my friends who have brightened the darkness.

Grey City

2008-03-02T00:53:00.002+08:00

Cold and unwelcoming, the bleak city is shrouded in a mist of grey. Nothing is beautiful, everything looks dead. I hate the place.

下雨了

2008-02-26T01:53:00.002+08:00

狂风吹起，下雨了。

热热的面填满着肚子，
好友的关坏温暖着心。

像个小孩般打着电动，
如此的时光还会有吗？

好想飞到无人荒岛，
看天的阔，
听海的广。

谢谢你给的勇
延续着希望
完成梦想

雨越下越大，
天的眼泪会停吗？

Book Keeper of the Day

2008-02-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

I was book keeper for the day (well, a couple of hours) while the original book keepers took a short trip to the new book shop. So sad that the tree house is going. 29th February is officially the last opening day.

There was a really cute boy at the store today. Neighbours apparently. He's so playful, rearranging all the toys around. He looks like a photographer in the making, fooling around with my holga. Can't wait to develop the roll. Oh, he;s only 3.

His mom is talking about the goodies she got from the back allies of Hong Kong. The jade pieces, cameras, typewriters and toys. I want to go treasure hunting in Hong Kong.

it's official. Polaroid will close its factories at the end of the year. There goes one of my favorite toys. I have only one and a half pack left. I NEED to stock up more.

Thing's not been going smoothly since the beginning of the year, not just for me but others as well. The goals set last years ain't met. I guess I need to generate more drive. Looking forward to Dim Sums, MTV, Boss' shoot, The Man Who Questions Death, Mayday. Hope things will get better.

Who will be there with me at the end of the day.

Trendsetter - Old School Style

2008-02-07T01:57:00.001+08:00

Spoilt Brat

Caged

Cool Geek

Happy Kid

The Eternal Summer Cycling Look

Suspenders

Aviator Shades

Chinese New Year

Click Click!

2008-02-04T00:51:00.000+08:00

The magic of the shutter and the mouse.

An illustrated portrait who looks like me manually photoshop-ed onto me (enhanced digitally).

Door peep-hole: Fish-eye cam for the poor.

Guess which thumb belongs to who!

Late Night Rumblings

2008-02-01T03:00:00.000+08:00

School's been REALLY busy lately. This semester's packed with fun studios modules. I'm fulfilling dream of majoring in Photography. I'm currently taking 2 of the Photography core modules. I love being back in the dark room again. The idea of setting my own is coming back again.

Caught Chesty Nutty Bang Bang with Alec ning momo and small girl the other day. A very nice show accompanied by very nice company. Lookinf forward to dim sums.

Spent a night out to kill time with Kenny(老板), Andy(干爹) and Kex. Ended up at Mr Bean near Sunshine. Gave an SMS to Ami to check if she's still around and SHE IS! and abang Khai just droppped me an sms earlier too. Oh. Its been more than a year. Or feels like it.
Life's always tough but friends make the difficult days easier to get by.

Toast to a tough life with wonderful friends.

A Flash of Holga

2008-02-01T02:43:00.000+08:00

Conversing With Light V1

2008-01-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

与光的诗

2008-01-20T19:58:00.000+08:00

一个人
我忘了如何说话

走在街上
人群变成了影子

全世界安静了下来
只剩下光于自己

我把光收起来
把记忆收起来
把话收了起来

深夜

2008-01-20T15:58:00.000+08:00

老板

干爹

妹子

可欣

溺爱

2008-01-09T11:36:00.000+08:00

纵容你的一切
不顾自己
让你得到幸福
就算辛苦也无所谓
不求任何回应

这就是溺爱
是吗？

是吗？

New Year Resolutions...

2008-01-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

new year resolutions...

posted by ahlec

... my ass! no one ever stick to them!

seriously, i dun need my sudden moment of year end ingeniousness to decide wat i need to do for the next 365 (366 for Yr 2008) days!

if pple had the time to sit down and think of:-
1) more time for family
2) proper diet
3) get in shape
4) quit this
5) learn that
6) get rich
7) world peace/save the planet/etc
might as well get started with it already!!!

new year resolutions is juz a nicer way to procrastinate wat shld have been done this year to the next. get ur lazy ass moving!!!

if u r still reading, u lazy ass, here's another for u. go appreciate the year that have juz passed, good or bad, it's part of u now.

The Day Before the Last Day of the Year

2007-12-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

5 Days Around Christmas

2007-12-29T09:09:00.000+08:00

Christmas Eve.1 Day Before Christmas.

Spent the whole afternoon with Andy in Film lab wrapping up the job which only ended early next morning (for Andy at least). I rushed down to town to catch Alvin and the Chipmunks with Alec and Ning. Not a bad movie for its cuteness and nice remixes but the storyline is SOOOOO boring. Went for last minute (to its most literal sense) Christmas shopping around Cineleisure and finally ending up at this new restaurant thingy for a Christmas dinner/supper. Camera is always the toy when the 3 of us are together. Well, most of the time. [for more details, catch Ning's blog]

Staring at the pretentious couple across the restaurant.

The over-sized turkey drumstick

Santa #1

Santa #2

Santa #3

Alec: "Most natural"

Chirstmas Day. The Day.

Had dinner with my sec school buds at Park Royal Hotel. The first thing Shirley did when I saw her was to ask me to carry her bag of presents. Wait, she didn't ask. She passed me her bag of presents. -.- Boon is as auntie as usual. Meixia is now Mrs Lee (well, if ROM is soon) Shirin is auntie also with her gold Casio watch. Went over to Bugis to seek out post-dinner activity and ended up at TCC. Well, we are suppose to go Coffee Club for Ice Lychee. Boon and Xia was sure its at bugis and that place sells it. Boon apparently has been there a couple of times. NOT! TCC is different from Coffee Club. As usual, always had awful drinks at TCC. Condemned.

Szeming's drink rocks. Mine sucks.

The last survivors

Boxing Day.1 Day After Christmas.

Went out for dinner with Chia Meng and Weidong. Nothing big, just Burger King. Chit Chat on random stuff. Caught Citizen Dog after that. Very Amelie, with saturated colours, whimsical stories and many effects. Nice though it reminded me of My Girl in some ways.

Day after Boxing Day.2 Days After Christmas.

Went to send Chia meng's laptop for servicing before heading to Ikea to get some cool shit (which is sold out). Headed back to sch to realize can't get to work cause they are upgrading the Final Cut Pro. Denny's job is so totally delayed. I'm so screwed. Kex pop by after jamming to go down to town together for movie with Mattina and Andy.

my idiotic hair that day

Across The Universe is so damn good. It was a nice interpretation of Beatles' songs with strong references to things happening during that period, like war, freedom, hippies and all. It was a little too long at certain parts and Prudence's story seems a little weak. All in all, it was a nice movie with strong visuals. Love it.

Headed down to east Coast for dinner/supper. So nice to just walk along the shoreline and chat. Too bad we had to leave so early. Bunked in with Chia meng since its too far for Andy to send me home. Thom called to say results are out. Well, wasn't too good which was kin of expected. GPA 3.9. BAD. [Note: as of now, I still haven seen my results with my own eyes]

Yesterday.3 Days After Christmas.

Slept in till mid-day before heading to PS to meet up with artistic director of Little Red Shop (whom I met when helping with Gabby's project 3Men3Women).I'm helping him to do a simple edit of some of his shows to put up on the Little Red Shop. He's also inviting me to help out on one of his upcoming shows which looks super duper exciting. Had a nice long chat on that span from art to theatre to acting to creativity to life to laptops. Felt so much like a young boy with so much to learn. A critic which will spur me to improve my works. So looking forward to work with them.

2 Buddy Meals Please

2007-12-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today was a buddy's day out.

Woke up damn early in the morning (though I slept rather late last night) to meet my sec sch bud for a lesson on diamonds. Cut, Carats, Colour, Clarity, all add to the COST of the stone. Girls' best friend that was once a piece of coal. Well. In my opinion, Destinee from Lee Hwa in deed looks pretty but the sales person from Goldheart is the better one (Note: they are under the same umbrella company).

Drop by szeming's new place which is a stone's throw (literally) from Jurong West sports complex, which reminded me how long it has been since i went swimming.

Joined teacher for a hairdo make-over at szeming's cousin's salon. I like it there and now im an Ah Beng.

Alec had a journey to the west so we had a nice time exploring IMM. It reminded me of a x'mas shopping trip i had when i was 8 or 9 when i was led through the toys department of some departmental store. Today was almost the same. Helicopters. Bicycles. Rollerblades. Dvd players. Toys for the little boys in us basically. If only i can really have them for x'mas.

Had a great time chilling @ hanzi's new place in Yishun with my lovely friends yesterday too. I miss our times together in year one.

I love my buddies.

The Closeted Beng

This is Xuan Xuan. I met him one Wednesday morning in a deserted mall filled with musical kids.
I take out my phone and he exclaimed in his cute little boyish voice, "This is the same phone as mine!" Next thing I know, he slides the camera cover down and takes this photo. A star in the making.

Nic's cool old school digital camera which he doesn't know how to use.

An Excerpt And A Quote

2007-12-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

"Loneliness: there is no organ that can take it all."

"i wanted to say somewhere: i've tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in. I scowled at the world. And the world scowled back."

- The History of Love, Nicole Krauss

The sliver lining

2007-12-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

Alone in the cold, empty lab, I'm dreaming of afternoon walks in France over the cyberspace with Ami who is in London.

Can't wait for miracles to happen. It's Christmas time isn't it?

Well, back to my brain-less work for now.

Trapped

2007-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

Feeling trapped these few days. Too many things to express. I feel like I'm losing myself day by day.

Only half way through the week and I'm dying. How to survive till the end of the year?

Somethings we can never escape from.

Delusional kid.

Which is worst? To lose yourself or the reflection in the mirror.

I was never the priority.

I'm nothing in others' presence.

Drowning in work.

Help.

Save.

me.

Personal by Stars

2007-12-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

[Wanted:]
 Single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
 [Sought by single m:] Mrs.Destiny, send photo to address, is it you and me?
 
 [Reply to single m:]
 My name is Caroline cell phone number here, call if you have the time
 28 and bored, grieving over loss, sorry to be heavy but heavy is the cost, heavy is the cost
 
 [Reply to Caroline:]
 Thanks so much for response, these things can be scary
 Not always what you want
 How about a drink? The St.Jude club at noon?
 I'll phone you first I guess
 I hope I see you soon!
 
 I never got your name, I assume you're 33
 Your voice it sounded kind
 I hope that you like me
 When you see my face, I hope that you don't laugh
 I'm not a film-star beauty
 I sent a photograph
 I hope that you don't laugh...
 
 [Note to single m:]
 Why did you not show up?
 I waited for an hour and finally gave up
 I thought once that I saw you, I thought that you saw me
 I guess we'll never meet now
 It wasn't meant to be
 I was sure that you saw me, but it wasn't meant to be
 
 [Wanted:]
 single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
 Sought by single m: 
 nothing too heavy, send photo to address
 is it you?

 or me?

Words...

2007-12-15T23:58:00.000+08:00

Words

are
letters
and
alphabets
stringed
up with
nothings.

Words are
frivolous.
They are
empty
and
hold no weight.

Do not put
all your
trust in them.
More often then not,
they are
the herald of false hope
and
bringer of despair.

Certain things just keeps coming back to haunt us.

3 Men 3 Women

2007-12-14T00:28:00.000+08:00

Had a charged up conversation today which rekindled the passion.

Photos from Gab's set. Catch the show at the Arts House this weekend. Interesting exploration with designers and actors.

Monotonous Moments

2007-12-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

我是...　　＃２

2007-12-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

余守恒，

那个孤单的小孩。要人陪，要人疼，要人爱，的小孩。

恒星的孤单谁会知道？

我是...

2007-12-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

3月27日﹝火星#隐士﹞代表人物：玛丽亚·凯莉

野心勃勃，充满热情，冲动，意志力坚强；学习能力强，具有实验精神，擅长开发、创造和发明；精明，不容易受骗。

优点是知识丰富，判断准确，能力强，可掌握社会动态。

缺点是个人主义，不易相处；不够宽容，不轻易让步。

...你相信吗？

路

2007-12-09T00:32:00.000+08:00

当路走到了最后

累了，回头一看时

最终还是一人行

会是如此的寒冷，孤单

如此的安静

棒棒糖的日子

2007-12-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

十年后的我们回头看十年前的自己
误会，沉默，谣言
让故事更曲折
让回忆更甜美

你会忘记那棒棒糖的日子吗？

Books and Birthdays

2007-11-30T10:17:00.000+08:00

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOOKSACTUALLY!!!!"

Yesterday was book's birthday. What a great timing too. I just got the DVD of my short done up. Had a fun time doing up the DVD but ended up waiting for the others to finish theirs first.

Thank God we rushed down in cab or I would have TOTALLY missed Ami and Khai. Saw them leaving just as my cab arrived. Managed a hug from Ami before they head for a chill before going back to work. Went up to met our beloved bookkeepers who are all dressed up (in uniforms. Cool!). Wine and cakes for everyone. I'm sorry I couldn't buy any books due to the big hole in my pocket. I saw what might be the last copy of "Everything is Illuminated" penguin version being sold. Well, thanks for weidong for buying the books too.

Somehow, there are some auntie/taitai's there which don't seem to fit in. They were asking about the postcards. I would have been irritated if I was serving them. Did I mention the 3 girls in flashy outfit who were talking loudly about "aye valvet later la" Wow. Books is so cool its opening up its market.

End up at Maxwell for dinner since I haven ate much the whole day. Ami and Khai went back to work already by the time I'm done.

Though only saw Ami and Khai for a glance and brief talk with Karen and Kenny, it made my days so much brighter.

Had a nice chat with fav junior Des while waiting in Film Lab. So nice to hear from them again.

Now I just need to meet up with my OCT bros soon.

Thank you to the most important people in different stages of my life. Always there for me in their own ways.

Only Ami

2007-11-28T23:24:00.000+08:00

We have been so busy that we haven seen each other in ages. We only meet in weird circumstances.

Ami finally met me in the rushes of one of her jobs.

What a mess.

2007-11-20T21:15:00.001+08:00

My room is in a super big mess. Things which are old lying around, things which are spoilt left at a corner, things which are meant to be done sitting on the floor. I need to clean things up.

Study Break

2007-11-20T12:32:00.000+08:00

启迪 - 星星暗淡了，谁来为它指引方向 says: (12:26:57 PM)
got biz law tml

启迪 - 星星暗淡了，谁来为它指引方向 says: (12:27:01 PM)
lazy to study

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:08 PM)
hmmm

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:23 PM)
alex was asking how come u no need to study ytd

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:30 PM)
then he says u're like me

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:34 PM)
find other things to do

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:37 PM)
so that no need to study

NingZ-ed [Little Superhero Girl] says: (12:28:37 PM)
haha

启迪 - 星星暗淡了，谁来为它指引方向 says: (12:28:44 PM)
hahaha

启迪 - 星星暗淡了，谁来为它指引方向 says: (12:28:46 PM)
where got

绝对Superstar　会不会是他？

2007-11-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

Just got back with a boxfull of sweet, sweet love from Ivan all the way from Australia. In his words, "I had to carry on my lap in the plane and eat on it leh!"

Flew down to meet Ivan ann Alec and Ning at Kovan from school for dinner. Too bad Lyn had to fly and Nic had dinner at aunt's or it will be the full turn out (sans evil twin jon as usual)

The new standard of measurement, Heartland Mall.

Always a pleasure to hang out with the bros (and ning). Ivan's roomie sounds like a freaking nightmare. Typical only son spoilt brad. Wonder how Ivan can live with him. Must be his elder brother instinct.

It seems Ivan will have to go for KINS alone. What a coincidence that just as we are talking about Alec's reservist experience, AD called to ask if I want to transfer back to PAD. Well, why not since its related to my studies. So Ivan was screaming something about not fair or calling me names with AD still on the phone with me. So its back to the cameras and writings for me.

We were chilling at Xin Wang (Hong Kong Cafe to Ivan) when we experienced mistaken identity. There's two girls sitting at a table behind alec. So I was looking around when suddenly the girl at the table that was facing me gave a shocked look of recognition. I thought I saw wrongly so I look away then back again and the girl still gave the same look. So I gave a stunted and puzzled look and look at Ning. Then she whispered, "you know them ah" "NOoo!" then we started laughing. So we told Alec and Ivan and the two girls were still giving the weird look and glance. So the whole table end up laughing like crazy.

We figured they might think I'm some superstar/actor/singer/celebrity and start talking about the whole incident which was so yesterday. At this point, the girl back facing us was still turning back to catch a glance or something. Haha. We went into the whole discussion of how celebrity friends felt and what I'm going to say if they ask for signature and all.

The most common things become so much fun with friends around.

碎碎念

2007-11-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

最近脾气好暴躁，为了无畏的小事而大动肝火。
可能是天气作祟，或许是真的老了。

身体也不怎么好，病了好几个礼拜，累了好几天。
可能是少了些关怀，或许是该放个假的时候了。

又期待，又害怕二十六日的影展
二十一日和二十八日的考试似乎不曾存在
要交的功课也忘的一干二净

眼看假期就要来临了，却不知道该做些什么。
头～痛～

Ivan谢回来了。Muthu涂生日了。OCT兄弟该聚聚了。

累了。念够了。该喘口气了。

Mom's Gift

2007-11-16T08:28:00.000+08:00

My first Ikea zeng for my Mom's birthday. Turn out rather decent.

2007-11-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

Coming Soon - 24 November 2007

11月24日- 隆重献映

倔强

2007-11-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

倔强.是实力.也是死穴

倔强五月天

當我和世界不一樣那就讓我不一樣堅持對我來說就是以剛克剛
我如果對自己妥協如果對自己說謊即使別人原諒我也不能原諒

最美的願望一定最瘋狂我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最後的倔強握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂就這一次我和我的倔強

對愛我的人別緊張我的固執很善良我的手越骯髒眼神越是發光
你不在乎我的過往看到了我的翅膀你說被火燒過才能出現鳳凰

逆風的方向更適合飛翔我不怕千萬人阻擋只怕自己投降
我和我最後的倔強握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能絕望
我和我驕傲的倔強我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂就這一次我和我的倔強

我和我最後的倔強握緊雙手絕對不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能絕望

我和我驕傲的倔強我在風中大聲的唱
這一次為自己瘋狂就這一次我和我的倔強
就這一次讓我大聲唱
啦啦啦...就算失望不能絕望
啦啦啦...就這一次我和我的倔強

倔强是优点也是死穴

手机没电了

2007-11-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

十一月十二日２００７年
晚上９点４５分
吡吡吡
手机发出了最后的声音
没电了

没回家
一个人在小小的录音室
隔音的门
把我和世界隔离

一个人在冷冷的录音室
音乐充实了房间
声音占据了时间
杂音回应着心情
失落渐渐响起

沉重的门
隔离外面的干扰
也隔去了你的声音

手机没电了
该充电了

垃圾車

2007-11-07T08:22:00.000+08:00

When 3 person tells you the same thing, it has to be true.

Last night the third person told me the same thing.

AmIbeingtoohelpful?Whowastheretohelp?Whowillbetheretohelp?Maybetheydon'tevenneedmyhelp.Aretherenootherpeopletohelp?

Read from some website that 牧羊座的男孩:

傻乎乎的以为热情可以拯救全世界

　　他个拿着支长矛穿上胄甲的唐吉诃德，誓铲除一切让世界开倒车的祸根。也许他正为某种理想主义献身而骄傲的脸烫烫，或是能尽一己之力而兴奋的笑出来。当然，他做的事可能只是比别人多走十步路，将垃圾倒在桶或将多找的零钱塞回老板的手，都令他深为自己的情操而着迷。同情弱者，打击强权是他穷毕生之力的追寻，他能够接受当面的指责，却受不了在背后支支吾吾，此事一传到他的耳里，立刻火山爆发，至于岩浆，不仅替他出了一口气，也把他一起活埋了。

外表坚如岩石，内心脆如玻璃

要男羊助你一臂之力简直比吃饭还容易。你只要流露一股无助的气质即可，当然能有求救的眼神保证万无一失。男羊就会成为一个百毒不侵的坚强巨人，可是要令巨人流泪，你只需告诉他，你不喜欢他，你从来就没认为他是你的朋友，尤其在博取他的信任之后，便足以令他心碎。他们相信朋友，重视爱情，期望奇迹，信仰胜利。坚如岩石是因为挑战欲而坚强。脆如玻璃是因拒绝而非多情。最危险的敌人最忠心的朋友

Maybe its also because 高傲的牧羊不愿意流露自己无阻的一面，也不肯开口向人求助。抱着『宁可天下人负我，不愿我负人』的英雄式告白面对世界。

I think its also because I rather people be 心甘情愿 doing it out of their own will then for them to feel obliged to do so. Guess this is where the 傻乎乎 part fits in.

阿信说的对，那谁又会是我的垃圾車呢?

Loose Ends

2007-11-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

Polaroid films have increased their prices. From $34 to $40 for a twin pack. Each piece of polaroid has gone from $1.70 to $2. Books Actually will be moving out from their cosy little white room soon. It seems the little things I love in life is slowly disappearing. Will my life slowly degenerate into non-existence?

I'm currently reading The Secret History, for the third time. It is most probably the book I've read for the most time. It seems to have a strange connection with me. I find myself being drawn deep into Hampden. I understand Richard's lies. I feel Camilia's pain when she cut her feet by the river. I feel Robert's cold that first winter in Hampden. I wish I could truly feel the love they had for each other. The summer house, the dinners, the walks and the parties. Only in the book can I find what I've been looking for. The strange connection and acceptance. Perhaps the magnitude of that kind of life could only be lived through the pages of their lives.

摆布.纵容

2007-11-04T23:53:00.001+08:00

最讨厌被人摆布的滋味，可为何如此纵容你的不屑。

As Of Now...

2007-11-04T12:44:00.000+08:00

Digital Film Production has been taking a toil on my life. Been troubled by it ever since June. It has messed up my life, my room, my wallet and my sense of time. And now things are coming to a closure though the pace is not at all slowing down.

Friday was the first time in months I went for a movie. Watched Stardust with Alec and Ningz. The book is alot better. Though there are some interesting/funny parts in the movie, like the campy pirate captain and all. But I felt the essence of the book is pretty much lost. The notion of Heart's Desire. How Tristan's parent's met, the star's heart and the idea of the babylon candle. I wish they kept some of the things i liked in the book. A nice movie nonetheless if you have not read the book. Like alec and Ning. Oh. they both had a image make-over.

Yesterday, I finished my final scene. It looks promising. Hope the tapes, decks, cameras and FCP agrees too. THANKS TO AH LEI and VERON for their help.

Went furniture shopping with Gab and his mom in the evening. Having a new place is so nice. So many interesting things to do a empty room. I wish I could do that too.

The next few weeks will be hectic. I do hope to have a nice dinner with mom and a fun gathering with the OCT bros. So long since I had time for myself. Been devoting too much time for other people. I wonder if it will ever happen to me.

Hugs and kisses. Miss you my friends.

Rainy Days Are Best For Hiding Tears

2007-10-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

I was opening my blog page when it suddenly poured.

Blank Pages to Fill

2007-10-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

This is apparently not an appropriate timing to be writing this [with papers and presentation waiting] but I just had to note down my feelings now.

The year is slowly creeping to an end without me noticing. So much has happened over the last few months, of extreme joy and sadness though the later seems more common and left deeper imprints in my memory.

As of now, things seems to be going slighty downhill. Everything I hold dear seems to be breaking down into pieces. My hopes, my dreams, my ideas. I desperately need to clean up the mess my life is right now. Yet my energy is drained. I wonder if I have enough to survive till the end of this dark time.

Like the title suggests, there are so many blanks in my life to fill. I wonder who and when will it be complete.

An Unexplainable Sad Day

2007-10-25T22:47:00.000+08:00

一瞬间，一股悲伤涌进心头
世界在眨眼间冻结
孤单像黑洞般，腐蚀心里
在人群中却感觉不到温暖
眼里的泪只能向心底流

我在追求些什么
我在守护着什么
我的身边谁留着

我想要的是什么
是微笑，是问候，是回应
是拥抱，是认同，还是明白

我的梦有谁来分享

星星暗淡了，谁来为它指引方向
自信给光了，谁来充电加满

In Memory of Good Books

2007-10-23T22:11:00.000+08:00

The only stills from my shoot I have.

As broke as I'm, couldn't resist the temptation of a Penguin cover of my Favourite book.

有借有还

2007-10-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

上辈子欠人的还真多
可笑的是
全都在这辈子讨债
还完了一个又来一个
既然这样
还有谁要讨债的
一次过都通通来吧!

触。痛

2007-10-19T10:09:00.000+08:00

牵着遗忘的温暖
扣起过去的伤
抱着纯真的心跳
拥起背叛的乱

该开始为自己而活了吧？

In Moments

2007-10-09T07:52:00.000+08:00

How will I be remembered in years to come?

How will I be remembered when I've come to pass?

How will I be remembered when everyone else is gone?

How will I be remembered by those who have forgotten?

How will I be remembered by those who were always there?

How will I be remembered by those who hardly knew?

How will I be remembered by those close to my heart?

In moments,

For we live in daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee,

In smiles, and laughter, and strife.

万岁！万岁！万万岁！

2007-10-02T01:59:00.000+08:00

有你们这些朋友，天塌下来我也不怕了。
友情万岁！

两个男孩. 在纸上的. 对话

2007-09-30T11:51:00.000+08:00

他说：
阳光照不进的心房
黑暗中我反复挣扎
争脱被压抑受困的快乐
眼里的一片泪海都干涸了
荒芜的思念不禁强迫
让我发出了连续无声的呐喊

他说：
阳光　照不进的心房
黑暗中不被看见的挣扎
用快乐压抑悲哀
把泪水装进了心里
不绝的思念　淹没被爱的心
呐喊　在心房里回应着　无声的黑暗

Casting Call #2

2007-09-25T18:09:00.000+08:00

A group of young film-makers will be embarking on a series of short film productions very soon and we are looking for passionate individuals who are willing to lend their craft and time to our projects. We are unable to promise monetary rewards but we hope that through this experience, you
can learn more about performing for the screen to fulfil your thirst for acting and eventually seeing your own hard work being screened at festival circuits and other open screenings.

Auditions taking place this weekends.

Dates: 29th & 30th Sept 2007

Time: 1 - 5pm

Venue: *scape Youth Centre
Level 1 Cube 3
113 Somerset Road
Singapore 238165

For more information or queries, please contact our casting co-ordinator Jonathan at jonathan.gohqidi@gmail.com
Join our production! Be part of the next frontier of local cinema.
If you wish to join us as film crew, you are welcomed to contact Jonathan as well for more details.

Attack of the Duckies

2007-09-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

Casting Call #1

2007-09-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

Random Reflections

2007-09-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

How ironic to be writing this on the day I'm extracting my wisdom (tooth).

Going through my past writings when I realize how much I have grown over the span of four years. From the insolent boy to the religious fanatic to the dejected youth to struggling student. These changes took place so slow that I failed to notice it. To the core of it, I'm not the same boy who wrote the first post many years ago.

Over the years, many thoughts and ideas kept coming back, resurfacing after years. Some came back full circle while others conflicted each others.

How funny the first thing I wrote about someone inspiring was "saw him for the first time today... sort of reminds me of someone but can't tell who... " Almost seems like a crush, most probably my own imagination at play.

School's been a series of unfortunate events. Shall not dwell on it anymore.

My point has just been proven that there are friends whom you can never work with. I need to find the people I can work with. I need to work on something.

Left my msn on last night and my deepest fear came to visit again. The senior who has been pushing me to produce work ever since I knew him. I am ashamed to talk to him. I need to proof I didn't make the wrong choice. Not to anyone else but myself.

Feeling even more lost after my reflections.

On a lighter side, I'm developing a crush on a certain DJ. hahahahahah. [this is so secondary school]

拥抱

2007-09-08T10:17:00.000+08:00

作词：阿信　作曲：阿信　编曲：五月天　

脱下长日的假面　奔向梦幻的疆界　
南瓜马车的午夜　换上童话的玻璃鞋　
让我享受这感觉　我是孤傲的蔷薇　
让我品尝这滋味　纷乱世界的不了解　

昨天太近　明天太远　默默聆听那黑夜
晚风吻尽　荷花叶　任我醉倒在池边　
等你清楚看见我的美　月光晒干眼泪　
哪一个人　爱我　将我的手　紧握　
抱紧我　吻我　喔　爱　别走　

隐藏自己的疲倦　表达自己的狼狈　
放纵自己的狂野　找寻自己的明天　
向你要求的誓言　就算是你的谎言　
我需要爱的慰藉　就算那爱已如潮水

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只要一个拥抱　一切就会变好
朋友　来个拥抱吧！
Free Hugs!

Lost in Digitization

2007-09-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

Sunday, I spent the whole afternoon along the cosy street of Telok Ayer shooting a three-shot sequence for my Digital Film Production class. It was basically about a guy, his polaroid camera, old shophouses and a childhood playride. A lot of takes for a few minutes sequence. At the final shot, the original effect I wanted didn't turn out. So I came out with the idea of a polaroid of a kid on the ride. The problem is we didn't planned to have a kid for the shoot. Just at the moment, a Japanese family of 5 walked towards us. I went up to the mom, who is holding the hands of a boy [just what i needed] and tried to explain that I'm doing a project and if the boy could help me in a shot. The mother actually rejected but the father, who was walking slightly infront, turned and asked [in the most basic of English and Japanese and Sign Language] where and how long, and agreed to help. So we took like mere seconds to reframe the shot, got the kid on the ride, took a polaroid and shot the polaroid developing. I took another shot for the kid as a gift. Sounds like a shoot that went smoothly right?

Today in class, we were suppose to digitize the footage and edit it. We tried but had a lot of problem with the tape. It turned out, the tape that we thought was new was actually an old tape. And it is somehow dirty and affecting the capturing of the footage. End up, the nice shots [Mr Pang, our tech thinks so too] are forever lost in the dirty DV tape.

The polaroid is the only thing left from the shoot. I am very sad now.

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

2007-09-02T12:30:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching Micheal Gondry's Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. A movie about memories [don't wanna spoil it for those who haven't watched it] It dawned on to me the thing that I find most intriguing and most probably would be the main idea for my stories I had and those to come.

The idea of memories, dreams, and fantasy. Things which helps us to remember, to escape, to hide, to denial, to forget, to hold on, to find, to accept, to answer, to question, to wonder. Things which are both good and bad, which are neither too. The duality of the mind cast different lights on the same thing.

The past and the future co-existing in the present.

Singapore Short Cuts

2007-09-01T21:56:00.000+08:00

Went to see short cuts at the museum today. Kinda angry that they were late. Didn't get better seats but got to see it anyhow. Thanks to Winnie for picking up the tickets for me. Kinda looking forward to the day I sit at the front.

Incomplete

2007-08-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

I've too many ideas, unpolished and incomplete. I've too many things to say but can't seem to find the rights words for them. I've too many dreams left unfulfilled. These half formed ideas and unsaid words are eating into me. I'm erroding from within.

One Week Later

2007-08-11T08:59:00.000+08:00

It's been a week of sch and everything seems to be settling quite well. I have got pockets of breaks on a couple of days which I could fit my swimming regime in. Been trying to hook up with Momo for some swimming but time seems to be the problem. Classes seem great though not alot of friends yet. Thank God for ah lei and Kex in class. I think the others thinks that we are some joker/idoit people.

Lect: "So what is the main conflict in Jurassic Park?"
Kex: "Man vs Dinosaur!"

Lect: "So who is the main character in Star Wars?"
Lei: "R2D2 la"

Hahah. Passing comments we said in our Writing for Film class. It was funny none the less.

I passed the audition for NIE Band, how I'm not sure for I very certain I played badly during the individual session. Well, at least I got in. Less time for myself I guess. I'm one step closer to my Minor in Music.

School is rekindling the fire to do stuff in me. Hope it doesn't die out or consume me too early. So much things planned ahead for the year. Hope everything gets done.

To my Muse

2007-08-05T08:35:00.000+08:00

I have ranted long ago on how my muse has never visited me before. I believe he never left. Just that we seldom talk to each other. Met up with Gabriel, my long time secondary school friend yesterday after so long and so many cancellations and stood-ups. It was with him that I decided my journey on this media path. We diverted completely from our Mass Comm decision (not great students) and went on a Film Sound Video and Vis Comm road on our own. Everytime we meet, we would ratter on about dreams and works. Such was the case yesterday, we slack around for hours talking about this and that and finally worked on a story for my first short. Hopefully things will go as dreamt.

To muse and mead.

Random

2007-08-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

Actually...

2007-07-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

My dental appointment today was postponed because I was late. I had nothing to do so I walked around. Before I knew it, I was at maxwell market. So I decided to make my way over to BooksActually. Spent the afternoon there just hanging around. Random talks about Wong Kar Wai, School, NUS's idoitic bidding system, books and all. Kind of nice to have a place to go to once in a while where you can just be there, no need to have any purpose. Felt kinda nice when chatted with one of the customers randomly. She turn out to be some reporter/writer/editor person from ST. Always found BooksActually very homely but it dawn on me today that my ideal room would most probably look something like that. It actually sparked off some ideas for my room (if I had one). Kenny was talking of taking over the cafe downstairs. I like that idea. A Buddy Hoagies-ish place. Speaking of which, let's go for dinner before school starts

S.H.E - 说你爱我

2007-07-29T14:37:00.001+08:00

下着雨让尘气稀释回忆
我靠着你不出声音
看着你看着斑驳的甜蜜
爱你困住你也困住我自己

我那躲也躲不掉的微妙伤口
隐隐作痛
你那戒也戒不掉的甜蜜借口
也让我精神腐朽

说你爱我变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落让满地鲜红
说你爱我变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

心理年龄鉴定

2007-07-27T09:54:00.000+08:00

鉴定结果
您的心理年龄31岁

与您实际年龄差8岁

幼稚度56％

成熟度61％

老化度36％

MajorMinor Thing

2007-07-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

I think I will be taking up Minor in Drama and Performace.

I want to work on something! Why doesn't any muse visit me or did I miss out any signs?

Instant Fun

2007-07-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

A glimpse of My newest Toy

Live Earth Short Film - Think,Change Habit

2007-07-19T11:09:00.001+08:00

Bros Night Out!

2007-07-14T14:10:00.000+08:00

A much delayed post. On the auspicous date of 070707, the OCT bros (sans jon again) met up for most probably the last time before Ivan is back from auzzie.

Was working (more about that soon) and had to rush down from sentosa back home to grab new toy before heading to thomson for prata. Lucky wanli still at home so he picked up nic before dropping by my place. As usual alec and ning was late. Was suppose to eat prata then end up at liquid kitchen. Wooohooo. Played indian poker and got ivan high. 1st time. Then then tried to figure out my new toy. $25.50 well spent.

Alec bought this badge at some shop in far east. Doesn't it look familar? (See entry on 28th July 2006)

I Need A Break.

2007-06-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

I need a break from all the things happening in my life. I'm a sucker for changes. it upsets the balance of MY life esp if I don't have any control over these changes. I need time to pack up, both emotionally and physically. I am going away very soon and hopefully when I'm back, I'll be back to ME!