City For The Lost: August 2005

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Completely in-Complete
Something seems to be missing in me. Can't figure out what but seems like a part of me is in complete. Except for materialistic stuff, i have what i thought i wanted. My best friends in sec sch. My 2 god-bros. My brothers from police. My family. I bought The Purpose Driven Life to read to maybe shine light in the void i'm having now. Maybe His Love is all I'm lacking. Maybe its just love that i'm missing but where to find a suitable girl. I suppose i should get into a serious relationship should i find one. No more fooling around. But like nic say if i get girlfriend now i would not hang out with them anymore. Why can't all my friends know each other!?! Maybe i should stop wearing the facade when i'm around people. Kind of feeling tired smiling nowadays. Realize how shallow i can be at times. It doesnt hurt to give a call. Sometimes the things that hurt the most are those said or done by the people closest to you but sometimes i'm just can't bring myself to be angry at them. I am quite a brat i found out. Im the kind of kid that wants whatever thae other one has. When i had it, i will realize i dont really like it or there's something better and i want that. What an annoying brat i am. I have a philosophy. You are always rude towards people you are close with. you dont see people asking for presents or money or treats from every tom, dick and harry. Its always the thought that counts. The fear of being forgotten can only be countered with reassurance. It doesnt take much. A call or a sms or a msn msg is all it takes. Coming from a proud family, saying mushy stuff is not typical. If i could i would go hug all the people that meant alot to me and tell them i love them or i miss them. that's enough of rantless nonsense.


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found it @ 10:46 PM
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Thursday, August 25, 2005

Bad Day
It was a really bad day @ work today. It started with me leaving my pass in the office last night. Then for one of the articles that was going to be posted on intranet, made a lot of changes to it till i'm also tired of sending it out. Ma'am saw me doing nothing for many times. Many times when i thought she went out and people start talking to me and end up chit chatting, will realize she's actually back at her desk. Like ah lec say, "When i work, no one care. When i slack, everyone stare" Did manage to complete some work assigned to me though i don't remember doing much work today. Was talking to melvin [ will have official introduction to my office people when i got their photos] at heritage side while scanning something when ma'am walk past and like "is the photos scanned" i think i talking too loud with mel mel. Anyway, hope it doesnt leave a bad impression. ANYWAY, some good did come out of today. I realize how much closer i am with xiao jian jian after we left TRACOM. Realize how close the brothers are. [decided to name ah lec, ivan, nic and jon as my bros] had a long chat with nic over the phone on my bad day. Became closer with my office people due to talk cocking [which i think ma'am doesnt like] wanted to join them for mahjung session but realize i got to collect my pants [running out of clothes to wear] Everyone in office thought she is my girlfriend. Was happy for a second when anyone says that. Anyway, Queenie came over and talk cock abit too. talked about the photo and ivan. muhahaha. Anyway i made her say i more handsome than ivan and that i'm her type of guy. hahaha. Hope to get closer with other people like Webbie people who have cool people like Jason Tan who drives a very cool car which i sat in. Hope can know him better so i can get more cool rides on his cool car. Got to start learning driving soon.

Last but not least, i'm calling for sponsors for my ceremonial sword. It costs $360. For every $10 sponsored, you are exempted from a birthday present. If you sponsor $50, its equivilant to a year's worth of gifts and present. So do not hesitate, call me now for more information. :)
found it @ 9:11 PM
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Saturday, August 20, 2005

Finally.
My com's fixed so now i can finally tell you guys about the wonderful week i had.

My job's getting busier and busier. Things just happens so suddenly around here. Got to keep up with the datelines and stuff.

Important thing to note is that i went for 2 person's birthday.

Winnie's birthday
Went to Winnie's birthday yesterday. It was at starhub center rooftop garden. Had to finish work @ office first so met them late. Them namely szeming, meixia, zhiyu, boon and wanqing. Zhiyu and wanqing came later while boon came super early. Winnie look rather pretty that day. Didnt like the look of the boyfriend though. Had a wonderful time just sittin around and talking but not much with winnie cause she's running around entertaining people. Manage to get a few shots with her. Dont like partys unless the different groups can mix. Well... Left early cause meixia had rubberbands in her mouth and cant eat the food there. Left after the cake cutting. Important things to note is that wanqing changed her name to lixuan and there's this super irrtating photographer at the party SUPER IRRITATING!

Me and Xia [my best friends girlfriend]

Me and Ming [my best friend's boyfriend]

Me and Winnie, the b'day girl.

Alex's Birthday

After winnie's party, went down to meet ah lec @ china black. Met irritating seniors and juniors. Was damn turn off. Wanted to change to another venue but finally decided not to and waited for them to go up and get lost in the crowd first. At the counter, the girl staff checking the i card was checking me out. I think she dont believe its my I card. Got up and found a not bad spot near dance floor. Was not a bad night. Ah Lec's friend came down thereafter.

Ah Lec the B'day Boy

Me and my Twin and Ah lec [the finger infront of me is jon's]

The number of drinks i had:

Winnie's party

- 1 terquila shot

- 3 cups Vodka Rebina

- 1 bottle Corona

Ah lec's Party

- 1 terquila shot

- uncountable jugs of Vodka Lime, Burbon Coke, Rum + Coke, and something else

Didnt had my fav Screwdriver... Oh well... A very cool day all the same. Its the company that counts
found it @ 10:14 AM
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Sunday, August 07, 2005

Sweet nothings
Its been 2 weeks since i got my new posting. The workload is piling up on me. Covered a total of 4 events, 3 articles and loads of photos but everythings okie just that now that i have 24 hours outside, as compared to being stuck in camp, i would really like to hang out with my friends more often or at the very least have my own room/space at home. Starting to talk more to the people in my office. Mdm winnie seems to be the more stern one so if i can get by her, everyone else should be no problem.

These "free" time also got me to do more thinking than usual. Been thinking about how childish i was in my past. How inconsiderate and selfish i can be. Cant really believe that im actually 21 years old but i still want to play. Maybe its time for me to settle down.

Been hanging out with my grandparents a lot since after my granddad was hospitalized. Trying to learn my Teochew properly and all the recipes from my grandma which noone else knows. For example, how to do the traditional sauces and cakes and stuff. Apparently, my grandma's family is quite big in China and they produces stuff like soya sauce, sugar and stuff. My granddad picked up a bit of sugar differentiating skill which noone in thr family knows anymore. Really want to pick up and preserve thses skills since none of my cousins seems to be interested.

Caught Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Its a very nice show. Not advisable for kids although it is adapted from a children's book. Tim burton's rendition added a lot of dark humour to it. Johnny Depp's Willy Wonka is also a bit more to the creepy side. There's a lot of references to other movies and genre in the movie. A must watch for all tim burton fans and sadistic bustards.

I need something to fill up the emptiness in me.

Will you all be there when my time is up?

Its not us that's changing but time that's flowing.

Two sides of the same coin will never meet.
found it @ 11:27 PM
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