Leave Me Alone

Im dying, there is a void in me growing
Help me Help me

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Eternal Sunshine Under the Starlit Sky

Duality - The quality or character of being twofold.

This world was created in balance.

"In the beginning God created heavens and the earth." - Genesis 1:1

"...and he separated the light from the darkness." - Genesis 1:4

God created the world in pairs just as he order Noah to bring all the animals into the ark in twos. He rejoice in balance, each entity enhancing and supporting the other rather than opposing it. Heavens and Earth. Light and darkness. Good and Evil. Alpha and Omega. Beginning and End. Without the former, the latter has no meaning. Who would know what light is without first seeing darkness. Who would know the goodness in oneself without seeing the evil in others. How would there be an end if there was no beginning to begin with. Is it not in chaos that order is formed. The world and everything else is created in duality. Two sides of a coin yet each showing a different face. Yin and Yang.

Duality is present not only in religion and theology but in science too. Newton proved with his third law that everything has a twin, a completely similar yet different entity. "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction" Studies have shown that twins, identical or fraternal, have opposing personalities.

Yet all this entities are the same thing. Heavens and Earth. Both are places which people will end up in. Heavens is said to be a mirror of all the wonderful things on earth and earth can be heaven if you know where to look. The same characteristics yet different which, instead of contridicting each other, compliments each other. Light and Darkness. Each a strong force of energy. Yet one could never exist while the other is present.

Men are born in pairs too, just like fraternal twins. Each has different looks, different lives, even live on different side of the earth. But they will both be similar. Same hobbies, interest, habits or thinking. Yet they will be opposites of each other. One rich while the other poor? Or one tall or the other short? One optimistic while the other pessimistic? One helpful while the other is selfish? Which ever way it is, each person on earth has a twin, a soul mate or whatever you want to call it. The conculsion is, everything in the world is created in pair. so where is mine?

found it @ 10:12 PM
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Mindless Blabbering

One of those mindless, make no sense complaining sessions again. Here goes...

False Faith
A term used by my twin ever so often. How can faith be false? Faith is hope. Something to place hope on when all else fails. Even aetheist who dont believe in God places hope on something or someone. Surely things can't be that bad untill the basis of hope is false. In response to jon's comments, i do not deny that i haven;t been faithful but i come to realize something. My faith is not based on some other people's interpretation of God's word or what is to be done. I'll believe in him in my own ways.

Alone
The idea of being alone is appealling to me more and more. The idea of having a sanctuary to hide away, to read a book, watch a movie or just be alone. This is the reason why i want a place or at the least a room of my own. The next best alternative i can get is friends. Those nice ones where there's no facade or hiding or eing pretentious. That's why its so nice to hang out with szeming they all or jiaming or the bros or the boys. No need words, just the comfort of their company. I think this is the reason for my interest in arts, like books or drawing or animation or video. I can create this scanctuary, something which is mine. Yet, i do not have the motivation to do anything when i do not have a place i can call my own to do so in. Anyone want to spare me a place.

Kinda getting depress talking about stuff like these, especailly when i'm now chatting with ami about stuff like these too. Man. got to cool down. Tomorrow's gonna be worst. Meeting and my stuff not ready. I hate my life. Spare me.

found it @ 8:23 PM
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