City For The Lost: Completely in-Complete

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Completely in-Complete
Something seems to be missing in me. Can't figure out what but seems like a part of me is in complete. Except for materialistic stuff, i have what i thought i wanted. My best friends in sec sch. My 2 god-bros. My brothers from police. My family. I bought The Purpose Driven Life to read to maybe shine light in the void i'm having now. Maybe His Love is all I'm lacking. Maybe its just love that i'm missing but where to find a suitable girl. I suppose i should get into a serious relationship should i find one. No more fooling around. But like nic say if i get girlfriend now i would not hang out with them anymore. Why can't all my friends know each other!?! Maybe i should stop wearing the facade when i'm around people. Kind of feeling tired smiling nowadays. Realize how shallow i can be at times. It doesnt hurt to give a call. Sometimes the things that hurt the most are those said or done by the people closest to you but sometimes i'm just can't bring myself to be angry at them. I am quite a brat i found out. Im the kind of kid that wants whatever thae other one has. When i had it, i will realize i dont really like it or there's something better and i want that. What an annoying brat i am. I have a philosophy. You are always rude towards people you are close with. you dont see people asking for presents or money or treats from every tom, dick and harry. Its always the thought that counts. The fear of being forgotten can only be countered with reassurance. It doesnt take much. A call or a sms or a msn msg is all it takes. Coming from a proud family, saying mushy stuff is not typical. If i could i would go hug all the people that meant alot to me and tell them i love them or i miss them. that's enough of rantless nonsense.


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found it @ 10:46 PM
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