City For The Lost: Mindless Blabbering

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Mindless Blabbering
One of those mindless, make no sense complaining sessions again. Here goes...

False Faith
A term used by my twin ever so often. How can faith be false? Faith is hope. Something to place hope on when all else fails. Even aetheist who dont believe in God places hope on something or someone. Surely things can't be that bad untill the basis of hope is false. In response to jon's comments, i do not deny that i haven;t been faithful but i come to realize something. My faith is not based on some other people's interpretation of God's word or what is to be done. I'll believe in him in my own ways.

Alone
The idea of being alone is appealling to me more and more. The idea of having a sanctuary to hide away, to read a book, watch a movie or just be alone. This is the reason why i want a place or at the least a room of my own. The next best alternative i can get is friends. Those nice ones where there's no facade or hiding or eing pretentious. That's why its so nice to hang out with szeming they all or jiaming or the bros or the boys. No need words, just the comfort of their company. I think this is the reason for my interest in arts, like books or drawing or animation or video. I can create this scanctuary, something which is mine. Yet, i do not have the motivation to do anything when i do not have a place i can call my own to do so in. Anyone want to spare me a place.

Kinda getting depress talking about stuff like these, especailly when i'm now chatting with ami about stuff like these too. Man. got to cool down. Tomorrow's gonna be worst. Meeting and my stuff not ready. I hate my life. Spare me.
found it @ 8:23 PM
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