City For The Lost: Excuse Me, Are You My Shepherd?

Friday, July 28, 2006

Excuse Me, Are You My Shepherd?
Its been 3 days since i technically ORD (never to go to work at 9am) Having had a purpose everyday for the past one year (even if i don't feel like going), I am actually feeling very lost at the moment. It is as if I had lost the reason to spent my days by. For the past one year, I know I had certain assignments to complete. Now that I have relinquised my job, I felt lost. It doesn't help that my jr is taking over the coordination half-way. It felt like the job wasn't complete. Man, I feel like such a work-o-holic.

I think this is just a phase whenever major changes happen in my life. The first time I felt this way was when I step down from as Band Major during Sec Sch. For a while, I had nowhere to go after school, as if I'm some abandoned child. I would drop by band room once in a while to see if they need my help. Luckily, it was prelims and Os so I had to study with my crazy classmates (we were watching Olympics in class and went swimming in evenings) As you can see, I wasn't really studying but staying around for the company (we were the smarter kids.. Muahahha)

The second attack of lost-ness (ha! wat a word) was when I step down as ExCo for Ngee Ann Band. That time wasn't as bad as I still hang out and around the band room and there was my digusting Final Year Project to complete. Final Year Project would have been another problem if I didn't had Ami's project (Beggar Boy) to do.

It seems like I will always get this moments after dedicating a majority of my time (and life) to a certain task or assignment. It is like taking away the purpose of you living. I need to find a constant purpose in life. Wait, it doesn't matter anyway, I have no life.
found it @ 7:25 AM
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